You would not believe your eyes if ten million fireflies

She doesn't feel as if she belongs in that world. She feels out of sorts as if the reason for it would be justified. It doesn't seem real. It should not be this way. It used to be so great when there were less things in the pot. Stopping for a breath would be so nice in the routine, but that could just be the easy thing to do. Why is this consuming her mind? She thinks as she continues down the path she chose... why would it be different with a fresh breath of new air???? Well, no copping out now.Pushing forward through the obstacles. One step forward 2 steps back, 3 steps forward 6 steps back. 9 steps forward, 2 steps back. Finally, make it out a bit ahead. Now, now it's their turn.

It was then she knew he'd be her forever

Sometimes in life we are faced with an irrational decision. We have a choice whether we follow it, or if we choose our own outcome. It can be difficult if you are unsure of the direction you want your life to follow.
I have been in a constant state of stress now that I have school added on to my monstrosity of daily things I do on a regular basis. I could choose to just give up and never look back, or I can take it on head first and let life guide where I need to be at. I'm really hoping things slow down and I can start focusing hard on other parts.