I feel like sometimes just praying isn't enough. I want to be a help in these young people's lives as they continue to struggle with the heartbreaking reality they have been rushed into. I know prayer is a huge part, but I'd like to do more.
I want to be there to help and even though I have not two notions what it's like to lose a child, I know the feeling of loss, and it's so hard. I am thinking about starting a group where these families can go and relate to other families, and even people who want more education on loss is like. Where they can help others heal, and cry with those who have been there on this rough road they are on.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Where can I help out?
I've thought alot lately about all my friends who have had a rough road trying to conceive. It breaks my heart to think that they have been so devastated over the loss. I can't say I even understand it, but still it is a difficult process to mull over in the midst of this life.
God has a plan for their lives I know he does, but sometimes it's so easy to lose faith because it feels as though the whole world is crashing and nobody understands why it is happening to them.My biggest prayer for all of my friends is that they cling closer to God amist the journey of losing their precious gifts. God is trying to show them his wonderful plan,but it can get clouded by depression, sadness, grief, anger.
Delve into his word friends. He's here for the hurts, the worries, the confusion. His heart breaks for you when you're hurtin so bad that you're at a loss for words. He wants you to lean on him because he will be there to pick up the pieces.
Lord, show them your will for their lives despite these desperate times. As close as it is to the holidays please give them peace and heal them the best they can be healed from this. Help them to cry out to you Lord, Cry out to Jesus, you'll be there to catch them when they are failing. I pray that Jess and James really cling on to you because they really need to feel your love Lord. They're so strong in so many ways, but it isn't easy for them to understand why they have to go through this turbulent journey at such a young age in life. They are dear friends of mine and dearly loved children of yours. Heal them and speak to them, show them what is next in their journey.
I pray for the Burris family. They lost their first little girl at 20 weeks and were so devestated, Bring them healing and continue to help them hold on to the hope they need to get through this. Keep them and bless them and help them continue sharing their story of losing a child.
I also lift lauren and chris up to you Lord. She's so nervous that this will end in miscarriageand you can see her heart. Just help her feel you near her and help her not to lose sight of who the author and creator of life is.
Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. This verse really is encouraging and I pray that you can show them what the next steps are for their lives Lord.
Amen,
God has a plan for their lives I know he does, but sometimes it's so easy to lose faith because it feels as though the whole world is crashing and nobody understands why it is happening to them.My biggest prayer for all of my friends is that they cling closer to God amist the journey of losing their precious gifts. God is trying to show them his wonderful plan,but it can get clouded by depression, sadness, grief, anger.
Delve into his word friends. He's here for the hurts, the worries, the confusion. His heart breaks for you when you're hurtin so bad that you're at a loss for words. He wants you to lean on him because he will be there to pick up the pieces.
Lord, show them your will for their lives despite these desperate times. As close as it is to the holidays please give them peace and heal them the best they can be healed from this. Help them to cry out to you Lord, Cry out to Jesus, you'll be there to catch them when they are failing. I pray that Jess and James really cling on to you because they really need to feel your love Lord. They're so strong in so many ways, but it isn't easy for them to understand why they have to go through this turbulent journey at such a young age in life. They are dear friends of mine and dearly loved children of yours. Heal them and speak to them, show them what is next in their journey.
I pray for the Burris family. They lost their first little girl at 20 weeks and were so devestated, Bring them healing and continue to help them hold on to the hope they need to get through this. Keep them and bless them and help them continue sharing their story of losing a child.
I also lift lauren and chris up to you Lord. She's so nervous that this will end in miscarriageand you can see her heart. Just help her feel you near her and help her not to lose sight of who the author and creator of life is.
Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. This verse really is encouraging and I pray that you can show them what the next steps are for their lives Lord.
Amen,
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Realizations
it's strange to feel t his in love with someone after all he hard times of the last relationship. I have huge fears, but I guess keeping them to myself is the better choice at the moment. I feel lost in my own world and not sure what the next step is.....
Monday, September 12, 2011
Life...
No nursing school, new boyfriend, lots going on. Repost when I feel better about the situaiton!
Monday, August 22, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Time for a new post I suppose
I was trying to get into nursing school but I haven't called yet so it's probably to late to even start pre reqs anyways.
My little boy has been staying up 2 hours after bedtime everynight for no apparent reason other than because he's 2 years old and thinks he's a royal comedian.
Well, I love him and I don't mind, but sometimes it gets exhausting walking him back to bed every 2 minutes for 2 hours. By the time I'm done I swear I've done a bigger workout than if I were to just sit down and do a simple workout routine.
I'm feeling pretty down because I still haven't heard from the dad figure. He has moved on in his life which is pretty fantastic I'd say. I am glad he's happy and doing well. I just wish happy included knowing how is young child is doing and what's new in his life! Ugh, I have to get this stuff done so he can have him for a month, because I know he would enjoy it.
Goodness, I really am not going to know what to do without my son for a month. I know I have to, but it doesn't make it any easier hearing about it at all.
My little boy has been staying up 2 hours after bedtime everynight for no apparent reason other than because he's 2 years old and thinks he's a royal comedian.
Well, I love him and I don't mind, but sometimes it gets exhausting walking him back to bed every 2 minutes for 2 hours. By the time I'm done I swear I've done a bigger workout than if I were to just sit down and do a simple workout routine.
I'm feeling pretty down because I still haven't heard from the dad figure. He has moved on in his life which is pretty fantastic I'd say. I am glad he's happy and doing well. I just wish happy included knowing how is young child is doing and what's new in his life! Ugh, I have to get this stuff done so he can have him for a month, because I know he would enjoy it.
Goodness, I really am not going to know what to do without my son for a month. I know I have to, but it doesn't make it any easier hearing about it at all.
Friday, July 29, 2011
We live we love we forgive and never give up.
Truth is,
I'm sad, I'm hurting, I feel so alone. God, he chose her. His family likes her. I feel so forgotten. I need to run to you and I know you'll catch me as I'm falling, but I can't help but feel apprehensive. Why wasn't I good enough? Why weren't we good enough? What happened to make 4 years just disappear out the window like dust in the wind? I watched a video yesterday of Tyler as his dad helped him climb the stairs and last year I would have been there all summer long. This year... I'm sitting at home, heart empty, heart hurting, heart questioning, heart broken, but then you remind me that you work for the good, and that is something I'm going to have to cling to in this time of utter despair. Please God, my heart is crying out to you, please just hold me up, I know you make us go through bad times to get to those of good times, I will go through as much bad as you know I can handle, and I will trust you won't be away from me, even though right now, I feel like I'm all alone, grasping for some kind of leg up.
Jesus,
Thank you for this day of life, for a brand new day filled with opportunities to praise you. Thank you for dying for us so we may witness to all those who are without you now.
Father,
Please heal Jess's broken heart. I know she's struggling, and sometimes it's hard to trust that you are with us even in the valley of the shadow of death, but please give her strength and the courage to keep trusting you. You know her spirit, and you know she is struggling, but just let her know you're by her side in this time of pain. Lift her up and help her lean on you more and more through these dark times that just seem endless. Use her in only the ways you have written for her in your book of life. Help her to remember to live, love, forgive, and never give up.
Amen.
I'm sad, I'm hurting, I feel so alone. God, he chose her. His family likes her. I feel so forgotten. I need to run to you and I know you'll catch me as I'm falling, but I can't help but feel apprehensive. Why wasn't I good enough? Why weren't we good enough? What happened to make 4 years just disappear out the window like dust in the wind? I watched a video yesterday of Tyler as his dad helped him climb the stairs and last year I would have been there all summer long. This year... I'm sitting at home, heart empty, heart hurting, heart questioning, heart broken, but then you remind me that you work for the good, and that is something I'm going to have to cling to in this time of utter despair. Please God, my heart is crying out to you, please just hold me up, I know you make us go through bad times to get to those of good times, I will go through as much bad as you know I can handle, and I will trust you won't be away from me, even though right now, I feel like I'm all alone, grasping for some kind of leg up.
Jesus,
Thank you for this day of life, for a brand new day filled with opportunities to praise you. Thank you for dying for us so we may witness to all those who are without you now.
Father,
Please heal Jess's broken heart. I know she's struggling, and sometimes it's hard to trust that you are with us even in the valley of the shadow of death, but please give her strength and the courage to keep trusting you. You know her spirit, and you know she is struggling, but just let her know you're by her side in this time of pain. Lift her up and help her lean on you more and more through these dark times that just seem endless. Use her in only the ways you have written for her in your book of life. Help her to remember to live, love, forgive, and never give up.
Amen.
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